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Sunday, 30 August 2015

Day 221

[This is a short story called "Francorchamps", that I originally wrote for my GCSEs in 2010. It depicts the aborted first start of the 1998 Belgian Grand Prix, which took place on 30 August 1998. It it one of the most famous races in Formula One history.]

"Three lights... four lights... five lights..." Jarno could almost hear the unmistakeable voice of Murray Walker in his ear as he watched the lights go on. Or tried to. It was hard enough to see the lights from thirteenth on the grid as it was, but in the torrential rain, with your crash helmet on? It was almost impossible.

But, "GO!!!" ...suddenly the lights were off, and in an instant the twenty-one other cars assembled around him sprang into life with a deafening scream. Time for the fun to begin. The start was just like the twelve others he had contested that year, and the fourteen he'd contested the year before. Swerve to the left, onto the racing line. Flick the paddle behind the steering wheel; up into second gear. Make sure you don't slam straight into Wurz in front of you. Check your mirrors; check Barrichello's still behind you. Now look to the left again; look for the brake markers. There they are. BRAKE!

Round the La Source hairpin. A tricky enough corner in the dry. Thankfully it wasn't far from the start line, so the cars hadn't gotten up to speed yet. A car dived down the inside: Barrichello had gotten the better of him. No matter. He had passed two cars already, and was right on the tail of a third. He stamped hard on the accelerator; back up to second; now up to third; now they were away, down the long straight up to Eau Rouge. The most famous corner in Formula One.

Jarno swerved to the left, cutting off a car behind him; he immediately cut to the right to avoid touching the back of the car in front. It was a Sauber - or was it a Benetton? It was impossible to tell through the heavy spray flying up from the back of the car, and from the cars all around him. One could scarcely see one's own hand in front of their face.

Ahead of him, something briefly registered in Jarno's vision: a flurry of spray, a flash of white paint. Had someone spun? Jarno couldn't tell. It may not even have been a car for all he could see. Through the spray, the flash of paint looked almost fish-shaped, though of course it couldn't have been a fish, even though it was wet enough for one to survive here...

SLAM. What had happened registered immediately: Jarno had suffered a lapse in concentration and hit the car in front of him. With the sudden deceleration, everything seemed to lapse into slow-motion; even the rain seemed to shudder to a temporary crawl. There was an instant of silence, broken sharply by another loud bang and a furious jolt, as another car slammed straight into the back of Jarno's stricken car, having presumably been unsighted by the spray.

As his car slowly slid to a halt, Jarno sat quietly, trying to come to terms with things. His race was likely far from over; since he'd seemingly crashed in the middle of a straight, and on the first lap, the race would probably be red-flagged and restarted, giving him a second chance with the spare car. However, Jarno was still worried about the effect the crash might have on his reputation in the sport. This was his sophomore year in Formula 1, and he'd retired from more than half the races so far, having scored no points. He knew that if he carried on like this, this season could well be his last.

Now for the disheartening, though mercifully short walk back to the pit lane. Jarno unscrewed the steering wheel, and placed it where he knew the car's nose cone would be; he could still barely see it through the driving rain. Then he got out of the car, took one step and felt his leg kick something. He looked down: it appeared to be a tyre. Free from its carbon-fibre master, it had been merrily rolling across the deserted track as tumbleweed does across desert.

But was it deserted? The tyre couldn't possibly have come from his car. Jarno knew that at least two other cars had been involved in the collision, and he started to wonder how many others had been. He pulled off his helmet, increasing his visibility, though only slightly as it was still hard to see through the driving rain. Even so, it was just enough for him to make out the carnage that had unfolded around him.

The tarmac around him was littered with stricken cars. At least a dozen of them, all crowded together, having apparently crashed into one another. The floor was strewn with shards of carbon fibre, winking white and blue and red through the grey gloom, and scores of wheels like the one he had just kicked were barrelling from the scene like escaped cattle broken free from their ranch. It appeared that somebody had run wide and spun onto the racing line - the flash of paint that Jarno had spotted - and everyone behind them had simply ploughed unsighted into the melee, systematically eliminating almost every car behind a certain point on the track. And all around him, the other drivers were getting out of their cars, taking off their helmets, and awakening to the same nightmare.

Jarno clambered his way through the chaos, the stricken cars, and approached a marshal, who to his relief was frantically waving a red flag. "What the hell happened?" he asked the marshal.

"I'm not sure," replied the marshal, in a slight French accent. "I see Coulthard spin, over there somewhere-" he gesticulated wildly at an area a few yards behind Jarno's stricken car "-I think somebody hit him, and then the next thing I know, all the cars are piled up together like this, sliding along the track..." The marshal sighed heavily. "It'll be a miracle if nobody was hurt."

A tap on the shoulder. Jarno turned round to see his team-mate, Olivier Panis, still wearing his helmet but with the visor raised. Even without seeing his face, Jarno could tell from his team-mate's body language that he was a little shaken. "You'll be needing that for the restart," he said, gesturing at Jarno's crash helmet.

Jarno nodded and was about to put it on when he hesitated. "What about you?" he asked.

"I got taken out too," replied Olivier, "and there's only one spare car. You're the lead driver, so..." He shrugged disappointedly. "I'll have to just watch from the garage."

Jarno gave his team-mate a sympathetic smile. "Sorry, man," he said.

"No need to apologize," said Olivier. "This is not your fault. I…" Olivier turned round to take another look at the scene, them muttered something in French that Jarno didn't catch. "Twenty years I've been racing, and I've never seen anything like this before. Do you think everyone's alright?"

"I don't know," said Jarno. "There's an awful lot of debris around. I sure hope so, though."

"Me too," said Olivier. "Good luck in the restart."

As Olivier made his way back to the pits, Jarno surveyed the carnage once more. Not just the Minardis and Tyrrells had been taken out, but a Ferrari and a Benetton as well. World Champions and backmarkers, household names and debutantes, all levelled in a single moment, one wrong turn of the steering wheel. He glanced again at his departing team-mate, gazing regretfully at his wrecked car as he passed it. He looked over at the marshals, now picking up the pieces: clearing away the reams of debris, rolling the severed tyres out of the way, and pushing the cars' shattered remains to one side so they could be recovered. Then he looked behind him, and saw David Coulthard, seemingly the instigator of this whole affair, walking dejectedly back towards the pits to claim his spare car, his helmet still on, the raindrops bouncing off it. Trying to come to terms with it all.

Jarno sighed, then started to meander his way back through the destruction, past the broken pieces of carbon fibre that still carpeted the ground. He passed a marshal wheeling his car towards the barriers, to be picked up by a crane and taken away, and for a moment it seemed to Jarno that he was hauling a battered body across a bomb site, ready to be thrown into an ambulance and driven to the morgue. The destruction around him certainly would not have looked out of place at a bomb site. Then he was back in the pit lane, joining the dozen other drivers marching through the monsoon, some still helmeted, some dragging their crash helmets behind them, as though the storm had washed away their homes and they were now hauling their belongings through the driving rain, soaked through, searching for refuge.


[AUTHOR'S NOTE: After the restart, Jarno Trulli went on to finish 6th, claiming his and Prost's only point of the season. Eddie Irvine and Rubens Barrichello had suffered minor injuries in the crash - Barrichello did not take the restart - but nobody was seriously hurt. The race was won by Damon Hill, the first-ever victory for his Jordan team but the final win of Hill's career.]

Friday, 10 July 2015

Day 170 [Feels Edition]

[In July 2012, I was hospitalized in order to undergo a two-stage scoliosis operation. Three years ago today, the day before my second operation, I wrote this fanfic at 2am. I was sleep-deprived, in pain, and damn near hallucinated the whole thing. I was crying by the time I finished writing it. It remains to this day, in my opinion, the greatest thing I've ever written. I have made it an annual tradition to re-post it on the 10th of July every year, and this year is no different. I love you, Hanako.]

THE HOSPITAL VISIT
(2015 remastered edition)

As the curtain around my hospital bed swishes aside, I look up from my phone. There is the nurse, beaming as usual.

"You have a visitor," she says. I look beside her and feel my heart leap. I haven't seen the young woman standing there for only a week, but it's felt like years. All the pain I've endured so far... it was the thought of seeing her smiling face again that got me through it. I lay aside my phone in an instant.

"Hanako!" I call out weakly, smiling and raising my hand. It's at this point I realize how petrified she is just being here. She was trembling from head to foot, her eyes filled with terror as they took in the sight of me lying there, immobile, the cannula still rammed into my right hand though no fluids flowed through it, and the numbing cream smeared on my left hand ahead of an imminent blood test. But it wasn't me that terrified her. I knew that.

It was this place, the hospital, that terrified her. It was the memories that it brought back for her: the long, agonizing months she would have spent here, recovering from her burns. I can only imagine how painful it must have been for her to visit me, today of all days; each step must have been unbearable agony as she made her way through the wards. I'm saddened at the thought of this, but at the same time I'm humbled by the thought that she would put herself through all of this just to see me.

Hanako finally responds, forcing her gaze away from the floor. It rests on my face for maybe a second or two before settling on the cannula. "Umm... h-hello, R-Ryan." Her voice is so quiet I can barely make it out.

"I'll leave you two alone," says the nurse, and she hurries off, leaving me and Hanako all alone. Hanako remains frozen to the spot, staring at me like a rabbit caught in headlights. I smile a little wider to try and reassure her.

"I'm okay," I say. "Really, I'm fine." It's a massive lie. "Come over here, so I can give you a big kiss."

For a moment Hanako looks as though she would rather commit harakiri than take another step. But she complies, edging towards me one slow, agonizing step at a time. I slowly move my head, following her progress across the open cubicle. Finally she is standing only a few feet away from me.

"I... w-wanted... t... to see you... Ryan..." she manages to stammer.

"I know." I respond. "I wanted to see you too-"

Suddenly a sparkling trail glitters across Hanako's face, and the next instant she is crying. I instinctively reach out to grab her hand and comfort her, but she isn't close enough for me to reach. I bring my fist down on the bed in frustration. I hate seeing her like this, she clearly hates seeing me like this...

"Hanako..." I look up at her, tears forming in my own eyes. "Why are you doing this to yourself?"

Hanako answers me through stifled sobs. "I... I h-had... to see y-you." She sobs. "T-to make s-sure... you were okay. I-if... if you w-weren't..."

She pitches forward onto her knees, grasping the bed sheets in her hands and sobbing uncontrollably into them. I feel my heart silently break at the sight of her so despairing, and a tear runs down my own cheek. I reach out, and this time my hand is able to reach her head. I stroke her hair gently, trying to calm her down. "It'll be okay, Hanako," I reassure her. "Tomorrow I'm having the second operation. I'll finally be fixed. I'll be out of here before you know it."

Hanako seems to calm a little but is still sobbing. She looks up at me suddenly, seizing my hand in hers. The one eye that isn't hidden behind her bangs is red and puffy from the tears. She still looks beautiful to me. "P-please... don't... l-leave me, Ryan," she wails. "P-promise me... you won't... promise me!"

I smile again and wipe her tears, even as they begin to spill from my own eyes. From this distance the scarring on her face is all too visible, even through her dense fringe. I ignore it. She's beautiful regardless. "I promise, Hanako," I say, struggling now to keep my voice from breaking. "I promise... that I will never leave you."

Of course, this is a promise I can never keep. Someday, as loathe as I am to do so, I will have to leave this earth. But in my writings, and my projects, I will leave behind a legacy everlasting. And in that way, I will never truly be gone from her side. Just as she, a denizen of the virtual world, will remain forever young, I, through these words, will live on for eternity.

Hanako nods, and now her eyes begin to sparkle with joy, not tears. I smile harder, realizing I've accomplished something major today. Also, it's made me realize something; I'm not the only one facing their fears in this hospital. Not by a long way.

Hanako picks herself up off the floor, legs still bent somewhat so her face is roughly level with mine. She clasps her hands either side of my head and slowly leans forward. Sensing what she's after, but unable to do anything, I simply stare into her eyes - well, eye, one's still hidden - as her face steadily fills my vision.

Finally our lips meet. It's only for a brief moment, maybe five seconds, but with my eyes closed, lips pressed against hers, it feels like a split second of paradise amongst this hell I find myself in. Far too soon the moment is over and she moves her head away. Then I see that she is smiling, and my joy is redoubled.

"Th-thank you, Ryan," says Hanako.

"You're welcome, Hanako." I reply. "And... happy birthday."

I don't know how long we remained there, motionless, gazing into each other's tear-filled eyes, before the nurse arrived and told Hanako that it was time for her to leave, as I needed to have my blood test. As she left, I couldn't help feeling that, as hard as it had been for her to come here, it was ten times harder for her to leave.